My mind dangerously drifted as the name came across my screen. Among the flashing lights, darkness, and unknown danger of the traffic stop, that name Continue Reading
We Come from Different Worlds
You see a vet, and you see an angry, gun-slinging, paranoid, PTSD-stricken lunatic. He cusses all the time and seems to always be looking over Continue Reading
The Only Way to Understand It… is to Live It
Each drop seemed to bring a sense of chaotic peace. It seems to always take me back to another time in another life. I sat and sifted through my Continue Reading
An Arm’s Length Away
As the world came crashing down, those men did what they do best, they fought on. They fought to preserve that which others sought to take. They Continue Reading
They Were but Moments Away from the Same Fate
I walk the halls like nothing has changed. I walk the halls and act as I always have. I walk the halls as I always have and yet they do not react the Continue Reading
The First Time They Saw It All
The room sat with the palpable pain of the past. Every eye red and glossy. We sat as they called me "the rock"; "the untainted"; "the Continue Reading
Is It Me?
I cannot help but wonder if it is me. Of course, it's me. It has to be. It is me who has exceptionally high self-expectations. It is me who cannot Continue Reading
I Used To Be A Silent Professional
I hoped all my reservations would melt away as I donned the dusty uniform. I hoped that my every hesitation was nothing more than the obsessive Continue Reading
We All Made It, Alive
I see the dull rays of sunshine through the settling dust. With every slow step forward, they become brighter. Every unexpected gust sends Continue Reading
Violations of the Oath Lead to Traitors of the Profession
I have long pondered how the deeply dedicated become “traitors” to the profession. How does one seemingly transition from such Continue Reading
Standing in the All Too Familiar
There I stood, yet again, in an all too familiar place. I stood in the haunting echoes of Taps. I watched the flawless motions of the well-rehearsed Continue Reading
Why Cops Should Train to Failure… Not Perfection
With every rep of training, I felt myself kicking off the dust from the last few years. With every rep came the AAR, something I have long felt we do Continue Reading