I was born into chaos. My earliest memories aren’t of playgrounds or cartoons — they’re of explosions, shouting, and fear. My family escaped civil Continue Reading
Law Enforcement
They Were but Moments Away from the Same Fate
I walk the halls like nothing has changed. I walk the halls and act as I always have. I walk the halls as I always have and yet they do not react Continue Reading
When the Badge Became a Memory
I slithered through the halls, avoiding one final chastising from our hypocritical command. I stood in the drizzle and shook hands for yet another Continue Reading
Where the Uniform Ends I Begin
The uncertainty leaves me perplexed. The world passes me by as I wonder if these are my last moments. Is today the last day I don this uniform? Are Continue Reading
When the Uniform Becomes a Shadow
I recently read Turning Pro by Steven Pressfield. One passage about the “Shadow Career” struck me:“Sometimes, when we’re terrified of embracing our Continue Reading
Is It Me?
I cannot help but wonder if it is me. Of course, it's me. It has to be. It is me who has exceptionally high self-expectations. It is me Continue Reading
“Shock Probation” Explained: Kentucky Kidnapping Case Exposes Dangers of Early Release
What Is Shock Probation? Shock probation is a legal mechanism in the U.S. where a judge initially sends an offender to prison for a short Continue Reading
Becoming What I Was
My eyes begin to shift faster than before. My head higher; my mind more consumed. My every action more deliberate. I find myself becoming what I Continue Reading
Using Technology and Neuroscience to Enhance Training
For the past several years, I have dived into the world of Neuroscience, Exercise Science, Psychology, Neurophysiology, Stress Response, and many Continue Reading
I Used To Be A Silent Professional
I hoped all my reservations would melt away as I donned the dusty uniform. I hoped that my every hesitation was nothing more than the obsessive Continue Reading
What Does it Mean to Serve?
What does it mean to serve? What does it mean to be in the service of others? Is it something in us to serve? Is it a nature vs. nurture debate? Is it Continue Reading
Violations of the Oath Lead to Traitors of the Profession
I have long pondered how the deeply dedicated become “traitors” to the profession. How does one seemingly transition from such Continue Reading