Father,
Do you know my name?
Do you know what I’ve done?
I don’t feel the same,
Send word above,
I’ve wondered off,
I don’t know if I’m coming home,
I’ve built this strength in my head
Now it’s crumbling from within,
Slipping through my hands,
I look to the sky,
All I saw was the dark clouds of rage,
I look to the ground,
Does the devil know my name?
This cold steel I hold in my hand,
Has been my trusted friend in distant lands,
This cold steel I hold,
Is it the answer to all my prayers?
Am I built to endure this?
Is it meant to be fatal?
I travel this burning road,
This life I’ve built is in flames,
All that I’ve endured,
Will it end this way?
The man in the mirror,
I do not know,
With eyes piercing into my soul,
Does he have control,
A voice in me says,
No, walk away,
Things will be ok,
You are stronger than this,
This is a story,
Of my near suicide
___________________
If you are contemplating suicide call 988. The 988 Lifeline is a national network of local crisis centers that provides free and confidential emotional support to people in suicidal crisis or emotional distress 24 hours a day, 7 days a week in the United States.
Ayman Kafel is the founder and owner of Hybrid Wolf Blue Line Strategies, LLC. A veteran-owned training and consulting company for Law Enforcement officers and agencies. He combines his military and law enforcement experience to bring much-needed cutting-edge training to the law enforcement profession.
Ayman is not only an active police officer but also a law enforcement instructor and has taught across the East Coast of the United States. He offers a wide variety of training, such as advanced patrol tactics, mechanical breaching courses, designated marksman, and Human Performance under duress.
In addition, Ayman is an Army Combat Veteran who was deployed during Operation Iraqi Freedom in 2005. He became a police officer in 2007 after 8 years of service in the Army
Ayman has seen the ugliness of war and evil in the world. He survived two civil wars prior to immigrating to the United States in the late eighties.
His current position is the commander of his department’s Problem-Oriented Policing Unit. He leads a team of investigators that employs unconventional methods and Special Forces philosophy in achieving specific objectives in the communities he serves. These unconventional methods range from winning hearts and minds to specific strategic law enforcement actions to arrest and prosecute those who are the root cause of various crimes.
To reach Ayman, feel free to email him at hwbluelinestrategies@gmail.com
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