Every door I knock on is mostly bad news
Most cars I stop, I don’t plan on giving a ticket
It’s either to tell them to slow down
or tell them their taillight is out
When I go order a meal
I try to go to places where
I see my food being made
When I eat, my back is to the wall
Head on a swivel,
Is my food poisoned?
Was this the restaurant
where that pedophile worked I arrested?
I constantly scan for threats,
whether going to a call
Driving on the road,
or even stopped taking a quick lunch
break in my car,
Constant 911 calls,
The wife who called 911 is now fighting
My partner and I because
She doesn’t want her abusive spouse to go to jail
The smell hits you,
You try to keep your composure
God, I want to punch this
fuck in the face
Notify of parents
their child is no longer here
CPR, C’mon man breathe!
Rape in progress,
I hope to God
I get there to get this sick fuck
Shooting in progress,
Lock and load, put on my SWAT kit, armed barricade
Active break ins,
Random scream in the night,
Adrenaline is pumping
Tones going off in your car,
Dispatch frantic “clear the air”
Officer in trouble,
Shit, I just spoke to him a minute ago,
I go home at the end of the night,
Take a deep breath,
My family has its needs,
Bills to pay,
Mouths to feed,
My son/daughter want to play,
I feel distant, I need a minute,
Head to bed, can’t sleep
Do it all over again tomorrow,
This first appeared in The Havok Journal on June 22, 2020.
Ayman Kafel is the founder and owner of Hybrid Wolf Blue Line Strategies, LLC. A veteran-owned training and consulting company for Law Enforcement officers and agencies. He combines his military and law enforcement experience to bring much-needed cutting-edge training to the law enforcement profession.
Ayman is not only an active police officer but also a law enforcement instructor and has taught across the East Coast of the United States. He offers a wide variety of training, such as advanced patrol tactics, mechanical breaching courses, designated marksman, and Human Performance under duress.
In addition, Ayman is an Army Combat Veteran who was deployed during Operation Iraqi Freedom in 2005. He became a police officer in 2007 after 8 years of service in the Army
Ayman has seen the ugliness of war and evil in the world. He survived two civil wars prior to immigrating to the United States in the late eighties.
His current position is the commander of his department’s Problem-Oriented Policing Unit. He leads a team of investigators that employs unconventional methods and Special Forces philosophy in achieving specific objectives in the communities he serves. These unconventional methods range from winning hearts and minds to specific strategic law enforcement actions to arrest and prosecute those who are the root cause of various crimes.
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