Where do I find you?

Where do I find you?

That thin veil

Seems so wide.

I search, I cry out

for your voice,

a dream, a presence.

Yet there is nothing,

It seems.

Yes, I have your memories,

your pictures, your stories.

A short life well lived

Maybe that should be enough.

Stars, Redbirds, Butterflies

All signs they say.

But I need more.

Something tangible-

this earthbound soul yearns.

Is it too much to ask?

Maybe I’m asking all wrong.

To be still and know-

By faith.

Not by sight, touch, or feel.

I am but a mere mortal

easy for a mustard seed

hard for me.

But essential.

I’ll be waiting

Trying on faith-

Again.

______________________________

Tab Taber is a Gold-Star Dad–father of SSG George L. Taber V, a Green Beret Medical Sergeant from 7th SFG who died during a violent storm on Mt. Yonah while in the Mountain phase of Ranger School in August 2022. Tab journals to process his grief and to recollect memories of his son. Occasionally he shares his written thoughts with The Havok Journal and on Instagram @gltiv. He retired from the Military (8 years Marines;15 years Army) in 2014 and now resides in NE Florida where he runs a 4th generation wholesale plant nursery. He can be reached at tabtaber7@gmail.com.

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