Dear Suicide:
You stole my friend Danny from me.
You assaulted him when he was at his weakest. Just like the coward that you are. You infiltrate the lives of so many when they are defenseless. You sneak up on them like an enemy.
Every day you steal the lives of my brothers and sisters. You are not brave. You are not courageous. You are a coward. You use their afflictions against them. You exploit them. You are fake and yet, very real.
You have now become my #1 enemy. I will launch an attack against you in full force with reinforcements. You attacked me during my darkest days. You almost won. My Lord saved me, He won.
You assaulted me and made me use my own hands. Hands that loved, hands that have cared, hands that have embraced others, hands that have been clenched in anger and fear, hands that have been folded in prayer. You bloodied these hands while attacking me. You have bloodied and scarred many hands.
You have no weapons, and so you use the hands of us to do your dirty work. You don’t have the courage to pull the trigger. You don’t have the courage to pour the pills down someone’s throat.
You don’t have the courage to tie the noose. You don’t have the courage to run the razorblade across a wrist. You don’t have the courage to steer a vehicle into a wall at 100 mph. No, you have the courage to infiltrate the hearts, minds, and souls of people and make them believe it is their idea, their desire.
You can’t think for yourself, and so you steal our thoughts. Then you twist them and break them to conform to your ways. You bring nothing but pain, sorrow, and loss. To the families and friends of those you steal. Not only are you a coward, but a thief, a murderer, a rapist, a burglar, an arsonist, a drunk driver, a liar, and a child molester.
You are clever, I will concede to that. You also have an abundance of power. I am here to take that power from you. I’ll do that using my integrity, love, and loyalty to those you target.
You alone have caused more tears to be shed than all the wars since the beginning of time. The pain that you inflict is deeper than any ocean. The wounds that you cause never heal. You have your victims believing that the world would be better off without them. They buy into your lies. I bought into your lies.
I am now exposing you for what you really are:
You are the one that is weak.
You are the one that is hurting.
You are the one that is depressed. You are the one that is desperate. You are the one that is alone.
You are the one that is broken. You are the one that is sick. You are so lonely, that you entrap others into joining you.
Suicide, hear this loud and clear. Nobody likes you. Nobody loves you. Nobody wants you around. Suicide, go kill yourself.
Signed, One of your victims that beat you.
Cleo DeLoner
Author and public speaker
US Army MP Corps
Somalia Veteran
This article first appeared in The Havok Journal on 22MAY15.
