“SHHHHHH, listen, it’s ME…. not you.”
There is a voice inside our inner being that is recognizable as the one that only speaks our authentic Truth. We instinctively know this voice when we “hear” it in our own self. It is the voice we all hear when we think and speak to ourselves from a higher state of consciousness. It is the unspoken voice that is exactly the same that resides in every single one of us. My inner voice sounds and feels exactly the same as your inner voice. We trace this singular voice back through the lineage of everyone and everything to its root source; all resulting back to the one, infinite source of creation. That voice is God and God is the voice.
Therefore, all of us here and now are the unique expressions of the one Creator, living individual Earth-bound lives, dumbed down and residing in a dualistic illusion of time and space. Think of a beautiful clear mirror and then taking a hammer to it in one, big bang! All the reflective broken fragments are us, and if put back together, we all become one again. However, our unique reflectivity assists in the creation of consciousness.
If all matter is energy, as quantum theory suggests, then this 4D world we live in has its energy governor turned down to level four out of an unknown, unfathomable number of infinite dimensional levels. The question is, are you at threshold on the 4D energy meter or are you distracted and barely registering on the gauge?
The purpose of all of this? For our higher Self, the version of our soul that resides in an elevated dimension, to become reawakened to itself after dropping down into this degraded state of consciousness. Think of it like your higher Self is here to test theories, protocols, procedures, and scenarios to isolate the Truth from Falsity by, with and through “you”. Therefore, life could be viewed as just a quantum game theory or simulation to prove or deny outcomes that build upon universal consciousness. The game board is scrubbed and reestablished each time it runs the scenario as we, the likeness of itself, drops down into the illusion as a game piece; willing to forget the higher state of knowledge.
It’s like having the opportunity to go through an Assessment and Selection all over again to try it an alternate way while forgetting all the keys to its previous successful completion and graduation. You get a chance to do the experience a different way, or hell even the same way, just for the enjoyment of doing it again. Our higher Self soul’s essence literally volunteers to abandon its all-knowing higher knowledge in order to subject itself into what we experience here on Earth in our every moment experiences that we personally create; to simply align with either true or false, good, or bad, light, or dark, love or evil. That’s the duality experience.
Tallying up the score of positive versus the negative orientated results leads to an accumulated polarization of your overall being; a scoring chart or ranking if you will. Your higher Self is always shooting for an experience here on Earth to gain as many positive or negative points to graduate to the next level in that chosen polarization. If successfully done, the requirement of repeatedly returning hundreds or thousands of years later to Earth, or in a completely different 4D matrix for another incarnation to make the choice of chosen polarization, is no longer required. This answers the samsara question and thus leads to more development of the karma question.
By doing this, the Creator seeks to know itself by creating questions for itself to answer through experiences within a lifetime in order to differentiate from the opposite of what is not. This understanding ultimately leads to a soul’s graduation to advance to the next level; the 5D or 6D realm. When we hear the inner voice of God within our being, communicating with us always, in all ways, the only real question is; Are we listening for its call to finally choose a polarity? I personally don’t want to come back here and do all of this again, so maybe it’s time for me to listen and finally choose.
“I have been here the whole time.”
The illusion, however, is that we see ourselves separate from the one Creator. We see ourselves as unique individuals, randomly but collectively here on Earth. This perception has been conditioned in us since birth. Certain religions love to emphasize this notion so as to “scare you straight” or formulate and maintain control. Until finally awakened to a higher state of consciousness, called an inner conjunction, we believe we are all doing this thing called life by ourselves and for ourselves amongst billions of others just trying to figure it all out too.
In certain circles, this is where the story of the Fall comes from and introduces the idea of separation of both man and woman from the Creator. The result from plucking an apple from the Tree of Knowledge and ignoring the strong, moral, inner voice of God saying not to eat the apple results in Eve succumbing to her fallible inhibitions and making the choice to serve herself. This is the first deviation away from a life with God. Whether out of immediately feeling separation from God, shame, or personal guilt for not obeying, she desperately offers it to Adam who also willingly, not deceptively, chooses to separate himself from the Creator. Had Adam not eaten the apple, the contrasting relationship would have been God/Man vs Woman. Instead, with Eve offering and Adam accepting the apple, he aligns himself with Eve, thus creating a God vs Man/Woman contrasting relationship. And yet, it’s never been a “us versus Him;” never.
This is an analogy that humans repeat every day when not fully aligned with the voice inside themselves. Unfortunately, it has long since been labeled as “the original sin” and thus surrounded by the first emotions of fear, self-loathing, and regret. These are tools of suffering that followed the first choice, creating cause & effect, which then formed the immoral voice; the ego. It wasn’t a serpent talking to Eve. It was the man and the woman’s false voice of the ego; not the inner, true voice of the intuition. In this case, it does not matter who ate the apple first. Man & woman together, through the ego, decided to separate from God for their experience.
Shame, yet another egoic emotion, was born out of this event as they hid because they realized they were naked. The creator knew exactly what had happened because prior to the choice, there was never a realization that nakedness was considered the opposite of good. To put this into context, when a young child happily runs around the backyard naked until it is told not to do so because it’s wrong, usually from the parents who by the point of parenthood are steeped in an egoic state of consciousness, only realizes bliss. It’s the ego conditioning of the parents that creates the proverbial apple that then conditions the child to view what was natural is now negative. This paradigm shift effects every. single. one of us. No one escapes this.
This one event in the Garden transformed a relationship of only knowing God (the representation of love, peace, and harmony) to the creation of the dualistic illusion of suffering, chaos, and disunity that man (& woman) have experience ever since. But there is no reason to point the finger at Adam or Eve. It was all divinely designed to go one way or the other and then become universally accepted. Earth could have either been heaven or hell. In this one event though, we all beautifully created hell here on Earth for our souls to experience the opposite of what was the Garden.
The unseen, eternal reality of the Garden that awaits us all beyond the veil of forgetting has been recorded through thousands of near-death experiences. A consensus among Near Death Experience (NDErs) is that we are all existing as eternal light fragments of God. But here on Earth, in order to feel, we succumb to the body and its five senses. We are all souls dressed up in different human meat costumes, manifested to play temporary roles for each other through our own egos. We render experiences for each other to experience reality through this duality. We unconsciously utilize the ego as a clever and adept opponent to counter our higher Selves voice, the God voice, in a big game of hide and seek from our Creator.
In a causal matrix, that is: cause and effect, everything we do and don’t do creates the game for eight billion souls to play every single second of the day. We are all interconnected, so what you do or don’t do, experience or don’t experience is based on the outcomes of what someone else or something else does or doesn’t do. Everything is universally connected. Accepting this reality makes one more cognizant of their actions and reactions. It really is a game; a game of finally returning to the remembering of our true higher Self while faced with everything opposite in this hologram version of the Truth. And like in every game, there are two players. In this game its ego versus intuition. Will you stay lost and asleep, or become found and awake?
“You are too hard on your Self.”
By acting out experiences, our incarnations are like YouTube reels for the Creator to access and learn about consciousness as it experiences duality. But worry not, our Creator always love us unconditionally and does not reserve a sliver of space to punish us for eternity because of the outcomes of our stories here. Rather, we choose our own punishments for ourselves by ignoring the voice of God and dwelling in our own judgment; not the Creator’s. The ego does all the punishing for us here through guilt, shame, pride, anger, fear, anxiety, depression, resentment, bitterness, unforgiveness, the feeling of conditional love and the feeling of separation from our true Selves. Yet, it all comes clear after the “practical exercise” in the form of a “divine AAR”, where you view the entire playback of your life, and you play both the judge and the sinner; self-evaluating your past incarnation. You get to see and feel the cause and effect of every single decision you made in your present, and sometimes past, carnation’s creation.
To complicate things even more, the sacred voice does not come from our Gross human body, physically manipulating sound vibrations to create our unique audible voice by the means of vocal cords, tongue, mouth, and breath. That voice is the one we naively call “our own.” Our “real voice” emanates from the Subtle and Causal bodies as a much more intimate, unspoken soft voice.
As an exercise, if I asked you to close your eyes and say the word “Love” without using any elements of your body, you can still “hear” and “see” the word “Love” and yet you did not use the functionality of your eyes, ears, mouth, or breath; but how? More often than not, our ego (the minds voice) recognizes and shushes this sacred God voice and pushes it to the back; compartmentalizing it behind a wall of silence and gaslighting you that it isn’t real. Many of us have become afraid to listen, trust or utilize this authentic voice, which paradoxically is the one, only true eternal voice that exists. This voice is where our true Divine power resides. People used to fill sanitariums because the voice of Truth finally became audible to them and yet the closest humans around these awaken souls, their loved ones, refused to believe them because of the false, obnoxious ego voice that ruled their own reality. Ironic.
“The Truth is neither this nor that; it just is.”
In a previous article, I spoke about the ego and some important steps in our own evolutionary development to transcend its dominance as well as a means to come into living in harmony with it. But here, it would be a great opportunity to expand upon the ego’s alter-ego. In certain circles this is called the “Holy Spirit.” In others it is God’s own voice and in others it is just referred simply as “intuition.” From here forward in this article I will refer to this voice as intuition.
It is important to understand and differentiate the purpose of both voices in order to learn “discernment” another important and valuable word that serves in positivity to our worldly perception.
In a world of opposites, judgment is the negative opposite to its positive; discernment. I say negative not in the context of good vs bad or right vs wrong but in the context of a car battery; both positive and negative terminals. Both have equal value in this three-dimensional construct we call reality, but one serves consciousness in light (+) and the other serves darkness (-). Therefore, we could associate intuition and discernment to positive polarization and ego and judgement to negative polarization.
Polarization is the attraction or contrast to one side or the other. Again, both positive and negative polarization have value in the scope of life, but one serves to expand consciousness and perspective and the other serves to contract into a limiting belief system; keeping one trapped in illusion. If we are here to expand consciousness for God as much as possible, we paradoxically need both. We have to learn from one to value the other. Life requires the negative to identify and validate it’s opposite; the positive. And spoiler alert: there are only a handful of ascended Masters that have incarnated here and gone through the entire “game” positively on the “Advanced-Perfect” setting.
In this three-dimensional world (-) time, one way of thought is that Earth serves as a testing ground for souls to achieve a higher level of consciousness through duality for the one Creator. Think about it, every dimension up to 4D has its opposite; depth – up and down; length – front and back; width – left and right. If heaven is pure love where suffering cannot exist, then the Creator had to create somewhere for its opposite to exist and be experienced outside of itself in order to enhance its own knowledge. It’s the fourth dimension, time, that makes any of this seem like it’s another dual concept; the measurement between life and death.
For example, if you only knew “Good,” as something positive then you would understand that “Good” represents the feeling of goodness. But to really understand and appreciate the meaning of its value and the feeling, you would have to experience its exact opposite. You would not have anything to compare “Good” to or understand its importance to the universe if you did not have realization of “Bad.” Sort of like the analogy of “book smarts versus street smarts.” You need both, but without the experience of street smarts, book smarts is just a bunch of white noise. It is all about application.
How many times do some of us say to others; “We have it so good here in America and you don’t even know.” How did we come to this wise knowledge? By experiencing a contrasting opposite in places like Bosnia, Kosovo, Iraq, Afghanistan, and Africa. Even on a vacation to Belize, a country similar to America in many ways, one still experiences opposites. I am not advocating that America is the shining beacon on the top of the hill, I’m just stating that we have all made that comment to someone, sometime who seemingly has no basis of comparison on the quality of life we enjoy here in the States. Moving on…
This is the “So What?”
For those of us that operate in the business of war or crisis, we are just doing our part for universal consciousness to experience through our collective participation. We are expanding the value of peace for the reality outside of this worldly illusion by experiencing its opposite. Peace exists exclusively upstairs, and we’ll all get there in our own time. But we all have lessons here to learn for growth. Like love, peace’s opposite, suffering, has to exist somewhere outside of heaven in order to create a fundamental knowledge, perspective, and value for that peace. If you are reading this, we all proudly facilitate that learning for ourselves and the entire collective; including God! We may not get ticket-day parades here on Earth anymore, but we’ll receive our rewards for our blood-soaked contributions back up in heaven. The Vikings had it right and we volunteered for this amazing, once in a lifetime experience.
As curious, servient souls, fractals of God itself, we raised our hands and said “Send Me” to deploy to hell, here on Earth, to evolve and expand universal consciousness. We are essentially here, as agents of the kingdom consciousness of God serving selflessly through experiences we create for each other, good, bad, or indifferent. These experiences are purposely designed to create accumulated lessons in knowledge, perspective, and value we all seek. And we never take a knee on this mission from God.
But life here does not have to be hell on Earth. You have the power of choice, or free will, to make it as close to heaven as possible while still existing in a three-dimensional (+ Time) world constrained by the five senses. You will always have ups and downs, ebbs, and flows for your own self-learning and incorporation into the collective experience. But by doing the work of self-awareness, making better choices, and trusting in an internal sixth sense, the intuition, you can live more in a state of bliss while contributing to the mission here in hell.
Once activated, you can actually elevate your higher Self’s awareness, level of consciousness and perspective in order to personally graduate to the higher state of being after you cross over from this illusion back into the real universal reality. And I already know what you’re thinking and no, it’s never too late. By living in connectiveness to your intuition, you add to your own authenticity and the ascension of the human collective contributing to an Earthly experience for all. That, as a mission statement, should be the context of what your real purpose here on Earth is; To collectively add value to a universal state of consciousness and perspective by living an authentic, enlightened life on Earth through thoughts, feelings, emotions, words, actions, and experiences.
“It just is what it is.”
If you are currently on a spiritual journey of enlightenment, in order to make sense of some things here during this incarnation, it is important to understand what is pulling the levers of your on-board emotional guidance system. I often use the analogy of computer hardware and software to help describe our own human operating system. And so, when speaking about both the ego and intuition, as a metaphor, they represent two opposing binary code command prompts; like 1’s and 0’s.
At face value it is difficult to discern which command is going to take priority. However, it’s not a far step to just take a look at your past (read as code) and how you have navigated critical decisions to arrive to your present moment on your current timeline. Imagine for a moment the scrolling green text of the movie The Matrix and you can visualize the script of your own life’s past command prompts. (Actually, that would make a cool back tattoo!)
Evaluating the outcomes of decisions and relationships or whether you have fostered a sense of peace and bliss in your life through root cause analysis will assist in pinpointing which 1 or 0 your operating system was set to default towards. Free will, in this case, is the altering function you exercise when your intuitive awareness interrupts the default setting of ego. Essentially, it is turning off the autopilot and taking back control with intuition guiding you as Ground Control. 1 equaling God and 0 equaling Nothing; In this game of duality, striving for as many 1’s is the goal here to rack and stack on the game board. Where do you think you score so far?
But fear not! The universe is self-correcting and will eventually find balance in every decision made and acted upon. There is no decision you can personally make that will break the universe. It may feel like it at times, but sorry, you don’t get that power here in a 4D construct. The universe does not look at the decisions we make as right or wrong; that’s what our ego is programmed to do for us. The ego shows up in the form of judgement when it takes the controls. Rather, the Universe just views a decision or series of decisions unbiased and as just “Is.” Sort of like a grand experiment without an attachment to outcomes. If there really is no beginning and no end, even though we think that there has to be in this 4D illusion of duality, then there really is no place for disappointment. Fore, the illusion just keeps spinning on the carousel of eternity and just “Is.”
Let me say that again, if there really is no beginning or end, then what is all your anxiety about? It may seem we have been conditioned to think our turn on the ride has an expiration. But after our physical time here, our eternal energy exits the “Ride of Illusion” and seeks out another ride using all our soul has discovered to build upon the next experience for expression. The whole point of the “ride” is to learn lessons through experiences that may or may not have been preplanned by our soul or may or may not happen to us because of another soul’s preplan. To truly grow while you are here, take an inventory of those substantial lessons and reflect on the greater “Why?” they happened to you. Go ahead, don’t be shy about how deep you look within while taking absolute responsibility. This is the growth and wisdom you are actually here for, and the inner voice will be the one who speaks it to you. If you don’t know where to start, refer back to my article on meditation.
“You’re so close, don’t quit yet.”
Viewing it then in the sense of “Well, fuck it, everything will just work out” does not circumvent responsibility or accountability for one’s personal or collective actions against oneself or others. Again, the Universe will self-correct to keep running but it still measures your positive and negative polarization intention against all the lower Self’s decisions. Love and kindness leads to Service-to-Others positive polarization and suffering and evil leads to negative Service-to-Self polarization. Both are needed to help reality express itself and to offer your soul the choice. Its cringy but: We needed Hitler to show us just what pure evil is and looks like. That precedent served as probably THE EXAMPLE of what not to aspire to unless your soul is hell-bent on polarizing to the negative. The examples could go on and on.
I know, I know, why can’t we all just fucking learn to orient ourselves to the positive Service-to-Others polarity and just all live on rainbows and with the unicorns? Because as souls exit the carousel, there is a long line of new souls eagerly waiting to get on to have the opportunity to create different experiences to learn and grow in other unique ways. It’s not just about you. Remember, this is a team event. You have a certain amount of time on the field, but the game continues, and the roster is full. Existence is not just a “one and done.” Remember, there is no end so, there are infinite possible ways to interpret and perceive any action and create re-action. For example, we may have all deployed to Afghanistan or responded to a mass casualty event, but no one experiences it the absolute same. For a lot of us, looking back on that shitty deployment(s) or event, you proudly wouldn’t have that experience any other way in terms of soul growth.
When using this awareness in our lives, we are opting to flip the switch over to healthy discernment through our intuitive voice. The days of reacting though ego-based consciousness has always led to a feeling of overwhelmed sadness, guilt, pride, fear, and anger. More often than not, when we face a challenge, we make questionable or unreliable choices in a knee-jerk reaction; often leading to changes that may not have served our best interests. It’s the old, “If I knew then what I know now” after the proverbial switch has been flipped. This retrospection of our own life choices and perspectives often leads to our own guilt, resentment, bitterness, frustration, and depression in how the results turned out or how someone treated us. The ego likes to leverage victimization in these scenarios to keep a person trapped in a perpetual cycle of anger and hate. But it’s time for a healthy change right? Let’s all create the change we want; serve as that little shard of broken mirror and reflect the inner goodness that resides at our soul level. It’s in there, and the journey to rediscover it is fascinating even through all the shadows. Just keep walking towards the light.
“I have spoken.”
So, why am I even bringing this up? Well, a little voice in my head that I have recently attuned to told me so. It is the intuitive voice that rings “Service-to-Others.” I am now attempting to help a fellow brother or sister out that may need words of encouragement through their own current state of hell; that familiar feeling of suffering or overwhelming feeling of purposelessness. But here is an answer to consider; We are all doing life for the purpose of life itself to exist. We are the participants and the creators. We selflessly serve or have served on the frontlines, and we continue to carry that torch forward with a greater sense of purpose by coming into a healthy state of awareness and attunement of our sacred voice. We take the time now to understand the actual assignment, our own Hero’s Journey, and the details of the overall “OPORD.” We have already proven our qualifications to lead from the front in the military and now it is just a simple pivot towards this mission of LIFE.
Noble warrior, refrain from defaulting to personalizing the unintentional outcomes, the unhealthy expectations of the past and allowing ego to dilute the knowledge you truly seek. Instead, remember the answers all lie in potential within you and will be revealed alone; in quiet mediation and contemplation.
Ask and you shall receive, but first you have to have the faith and the courage to hear the sacred voice inside you. It has always been there, but you already intuitively know that.
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Robb is a retired active Army veteran of 21 years, primarily serving as a Cavalry Scout. Having accomplished multiple combat tours, diverse global assignments and leadership roles, Robb retired as a First Sergeant of Shadow Troop, 1-33 CAV (Rakassans). From there, Robb went on to attempt his luck in the civilian sector as a Reliability Engineer at an international paper processing company during the pandemic. Not quite satisfied and feeling the draw to serve once again, Robb made his way back behind the gate working with some of the nation’s tip of spear warfighters on Fort Liberty, NC.
It was during this time that he was drawn into an esoteric spiritual journey of self-discovery and began peeling back the onion of how vanquishing spiritual warfare can serve as a personal force multiplier. Dropping all ties to dogmatic religious principles, Robb solely embarked into studies of the mystical and metaphysical for the answers of life. Now forged with this newfound purpose, Robb blends his current path of spiritual ascension along with his past experience of the rigors of military service in order to uplift the future of his brothers and sisters in arms.
“The answers we all seek lie in potential.”
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