After Easter COVID-19 Reflection: Depression—A Door

by Gloria Rose

This first appeared in The Havok Journal on April 21, 2020.

The day after the crucifixion, Peter had to be depressed.

Even more, he must have hated himself. For abandoning his Master:
“I don’t know him!”

For his lack of honesty and courage. Lack of even being a man, for heaven’s sake.

Fear.
Dashed plans.
Unmet expectations. Wanting to be somebody. Be above, be powerful, be right.

These lowly motivations snag us all.

Until the whole messy game comes to an end.
Until death rules.
Until a pandemic sends us packing…home.

But the end of the game and the ensuing depression is a Door–a rock God will roll back to shed glorious light on

His steadfast love
His sovereign creative power
Who really is in charge and
What life on this planet is all about.

My depression parts the grey cloud of my-life-my-way and, humbled, trembling, I open my heart’s Door.

Voila!

“I said I will make you a fisher of men and I meant it!
Yes, right here, right now. This moment.
Come, this is the way.”

My crucified Master leads onward.

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Gloria is a writer-blogger who lives happily near the Rocky Mountains. Connect with Gloria: www.gloriarose.com.